Calc 2 is driving me crazy!

If I've realized at least one thing this semester it would be that I'm no engineer. The derivatives, the integrals, the partial fraction decompositions- that's just not the life I want to live for the next 2 years of my college life. Sure, in the very distant future it may all be worth it but at the moment every night looks kinda like this:

This picture isn't even particularly posed, I really have these books and notes scattered around me as I agitatedly study at the library. 

I can only ponder how it all came to this. Maybe it's the fact that I took calc 1 over the summer, at an accelerated rate so the concepts were not fully engraved in my soul like they should have been (after all, I am supposed to be an engineer, right?). Or maybe it's because my professor prides himself in having test averages around 30%. One thing's for sure, next time I'm checking ratemyprofessor.com to help me pick between the lesser of two evils.
The thing that puzzles me is that I put so much time and effort into studying. I spend countless hours writing notes at home over things we review, but each time I hang my head at another low grade.
I think much of it has to do with test anxiety. I am able to solve the same questions I miss on exams when I am reviewing, but as soon as I enter the exam room, my mind goes blank and I break into a cold nervous sweat.
With finals coming up so fast, the future of my grade for Calc 2 looks pretty bleak, but maybe with the help of  a tutor and reducing my social life to one of a hermit, I could turn it around.

Technology

Lately I have been constantly hearing about how Facebook is detrimental to our social life. I’m writing this blog to try and show that for most of the time we actually make our lives more social via Facebook.  A lot of people that I know if not most check their Facebook as soon as the computer is ready for use as if there was a rule that says Facebook should be checked prior to doing anything. For that I feel that Facebook would be a very wide field of socialization.

I opened my MacBook to start on this blog, but thoughtlessly I logged on to Facebook. I see that I have 6 notifications in which couples are mandatory meetings that I have to attend this week. Now Facebook is not only being a turf where people can plan parties and BBQ’s but also a business field where you can do serious grown up stuff as well.

Another notifications was my fraternity group on Facebook trying to figure out who’s going to be able to play football this afternoon for IM’s. I don’t see any other ICT that can do this job without having to constantly remind people that they have to check whatever other ITC there using, because most college students check their Facebook once a day if not more without even thinking about it.